boring day

such a boring day. yesterday. and also today. when i am boring, my mood will turn to moody. is very very moody. when i am moody, all the bad things tat happen on me will passed by my mind one by one. my results, my attitude to him. all these things made me more and more moody and upset as well. i am in front my laptop for whole day. ya is whole day, besides the 15minutes coz i was washing clothes. din go to toilet also coz i din drink much water if am at home. feel my heart so blank the whole day. i was on fb, playing my pet society. finished mine, then log in his, played his pet society. kept on refreshing the home page. see can play any comment o not. kept on publish my mood weather as bored. i think around 10 times??? wanna blog something. but just couldn't sign in my blog. and i get mad. and threw and smack my mouse few times. as a result, my mouse now became a bit sot jor =) weeee flash bek his old post, crying while reading =) read all msgs he send to me, crying while reading =D i've made him so suffer sometimes. umm not sometimes, quite lotsa times. am evil and pubo kan? ^^
not so sure wad am i writing actually. who cares...
neway.. is the 5th month. we've been through for 5 months dy. ain't an easy journey for us. especially for him. he had been very patient to me. i know =) forgive me everytime i did wrong. i can stil repeat doin the same mistakes time to time. pro lei me o0o i just dunnoe how to avoid from doin those mistakes. huh ? wad ji bye excuse is tat , elsie? hmm ... i feel like am a failure. two weeks later, he will leave kuching again. goin to his hometown for CNY. i am so so hate when he is not in kuching. even if he is here, but not beside me, but, at least we wont tat far. i dont like tat feeling. i tot i can pass my very first Valentine's day wid him. but i cant. coz Valentine's day was on the first day of CNY. i am really upset. this year's CNY goin to be so much different. all my cousins wont sit together and gambling. they will definitely went out wid their another half, to celebrate Valentine's day.
ugrhh not sure again wad am i writing. but.. who cares >.<
bye

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